Lets Share and Learn (Part 3)

Dearest beloved souls, I love you all. Thank you for your continued love and support. This is Post#3 for sharing my journey related to Ego Blockages. 

Today, I would like to share my testing with another Ego blockage. It is "feeling less than others". Many people mistake this kind of blockage for humbleness. How is feeling less Ego? Well, the answer is same as the last post. It creates separation. The amazing part is that I didn't have this blockage growing up, but something happened in my twenties. This blockage just started to grow and grow. I still encounter this blockage at times but now I am aware of it. I am pretty sure at times I fail to recognize this. I will continue to work on this one.

This blockage played in my subconscious mind a lot. I started to see others differently. I became aware that I was behaving differently with different people. I noticed that feeling less will not allow one to treat people in the same manner. I felt I was behaving different with people with authority and titles and different with people otherwise. I couldn't transform this blockage for long time, but again with Master Sha's grace I started to become aware of my behaviors around certain people. Whenever I would become aware, an intense feeling started arise from my heart and soul that I had to step into my own soul power, and feel the oneness. At times I literally visualized myself becoming equal to the other person. At times I repeated a mantra to come out of this feeling. At times when I was intensely aware of how I was feeling, I excused myself and walked away. At times when I saw, I was not being my true self with whoever was sitting near by me, I changed my seats. I just could feel this intense unpleasant feeling inside me when I wasn't being my authentic self. I am so grateful for this feeling because it really helped to come out of this blockage.

Master Sha shares that everything and everyone has a soul. Now look from this perspective. Do you treat all souls equally? This was a huge learning for me. Earlier today, I was looking online for a particular kind of shorts to wear. I came across a website with many styles. Some of the styles were amazing and some not. As I was looking through, I saw one design and in my mind I heard "oh this is really awful". In that moment I felt the soul of the shorts. I instantly did forgiveness practice with the soul and offered love. In the next moment, the soul was happy again. I have been doing this practice with everything and everyone these days. Master Sha asks his students to do instant forgiveness practice. It really transforms everything like magic. There are deep karmic blockages with some souls which might take some time to transform but with most of the souls the forgiveness is instant.

I truly feel we are one yet we have so much to offer in our unique ways. This healing is still a process for me but if you are going through this particular blockage then know this will need to transform one day. You are precious and beautiful as any other soul. You are also carrying a divine spark. You are not less or more. You are you. You are a soul. When you don't feel less or more, you will also see this in others. You will approach others from this perspective. You will see a soul of the beggar, Doctor or rock same way. Please open your heart to yourself and others. See the oneness.

Today I will offer a healing blessing from Da Bei Zhou Buddha #2. Please open your hearts and receive this healing blessing for healing of your Ego blockages further. Please leave your name in the comment box below and I will add you to my healing list. Please don't forget to share your own insights as we truly learn from each other. I love you so much.

I hope this post will help you all. Thank you for being part of my soul journey.

Lets Share and Learn (Part 2)

Dearest Sacred Souls, I love you all. This is Post#2 for sharing my journey related to Ego blockages. 

I will share some background about my history with Mind issues. I come from a family with heavy mind blockages and mental health karma. My mother was diagnosed with Schizophrenia from the time of my birth. I also worked in a Mental Health institution for 7 years restraining mental health patients when they were in the middle of full-blown episodes. I had to go through very deep purification related to the mind this lifetime. I could describe my purification related to my mind in one word: suffering. I felt deep suffering with my own mind blockages and others' mind blockages. I could say that it is like living in hell when one's mind is sick. There were times that I couldn't distinguish my own feelings from the mental health patients in the hospital. I had days feeling deep depression and anxiety. Some days I felt even suicidal. I didn't know that I was picking up these feelings from others. I know some healers are able to pick up others' feelings. I was able to this all my life. I would know what people are feeling and accommodate them accordingly. It worked really well until I started to work with Mental Health patients. I feel this all was my training in this lifetime. I am so grateful for this purification as I love my mind now. My mind is the biggest tool to serve humanity. I describe my mind as a lotus flower coming out of deep sticky mud. I am forever grateful that Master Sha saved me. I have received so many karma cleansings from Master Sha related to the Mind. One time my karma had affected me so much that my consciousness was totally damaged. Master Sha saw me in a private consultation, and so generously healed me in a second. He just put his spiritual instrument on my head and I was healed. It was a miracle on the spot. This healed Master Avninder that you know is all Master Sha's Generosity. I give all credit to my spiritual father Master Sha. 

Now I will talk about my Ego blockages. One of the ways that my ego showed up in the past few years was wanting to be special. My mind really played with me with this blockage. I have a very open 3rd eye and I could see my past lifetimes. I wanted to feel special so I was seeking ways to find more about my past.  I saw many of my lifetimes filled with service and I started to hold on to them. This kind of blockage can actually slow down one's progress on the soul journey significantly. Actually now I have compassion for myself for this blockage because I could see some of the issues came from my childhood. Why can feeling special hinder you from your path? Because it creates separation. Yes, 'Feeling special' creates separation. Anything that creates separation is Ego. Feeling special is saying 'I am better than you' and you know this is not true. We are one. We all have something to offer to the world. We are all pieces of the big puzzle. The greatest gift that you can have on your soul journey is to become aware of your blockages. This is what happened to me by the grace of Master Sha. I become aware of it. In becoming aware, you start to heal. You say 'No, this is not true'. I must say you can't ignore this kind of feeling because these kind of feelings will show up again and again until you say 'No'. I suffered with this for years until I said 'No'. I even prayed about it. Please do seek help if it is too strong in you like it was in me. Please don't be shy or afraid because almost everyone has felt rejected and neglected in their life. Everyone wants to feel accepted and special. Be kind to yourself while you are healing this part of you. Have compassion for yourself, but know that this needs to heal. 

One day when I was holding on to a lifetime and a persona where I have served well, this voice spoke to me in a very powerful manner. I know this voice was from a powerful female saint from history. She said, "WHY CARE ABOUT THE GREAT SERVICE YOU HAVE DONE BEFORE, TELL ME WHAT ARE YOU DOING NOW?" The message was so strong. I felt a jolt. and it continued, "IF YOU ARE NOT SERVING NOW THAT SERVICE FROM THE PAST DOESNT MEAN ANYTHING". I was completely in awe. I dropped half the attachment to being special that day. In the coming days, I kept hearing the same message until it became part of me.

The next event happened when I was connecting to my beloved Master's soul and Guan Yin. I was still having some feelings (being special) here and there but not so powerful anymore. Then this 3rd eye vision came and without any words, I was shown the so called special souls in the history who have served well. These souls are special because they are less for themselves and more for others. If those souls who have given their total life to serve don't call themselves special than I think no one is special. They have given all without any attachments. I was in total awe. I could see Guan Yin and my beloved spiritual master's soul in everything like their own identity didn't matter. For them only healing the pain of others mattered. I still feel emotional about this. I have tears coming to my eyes as I write. Now that is special if you want to call something special. 

I hope you can learn from my mistakes. I hope you can prevail and be who you are here to be. May you shine your soul light. Ego prevents you from shining your true light. Always be aware of it. Now please allow me to offer healing related to any of your Ego blockages. You can leave your name in the comments. You don't have to explain what type of ego. I will ask the buddhas to offer most appropriate healing for your ego blockages. The healing blessing is from the first buddha of the Da Bei Zhou Mantra. 

Thank you for being part of my soul journey. 

Lets Share and Learn (Part 1)

Dearest beloved, sacred, and precious souls, I love you all so much! Today, I am so happy on my soul journey. Today I feel such a freedom in my heart and soul. I am feeling so hopeful. I wanted to share this hope with you. I am in deep gratitude for this opportunity and more. 

Is it easy to be on a soul journey or healing journey? My answer is 'NO'. I was pushed to face all the darkness so I could prevail from it. It was not easy for the past few years. I wanted to share my soul journey through some of the deep karmic testings. I can see now that duality has purpose and the dark has its own purpose as the light has. I have learned so much through my journey from past few years. Never ever before in this lifetime, have I wanted to be aligned with the light like I want to now. I make conscious efforts to do so. I would like to share some of my learnings of this testing period that I have been through. Honestly, I have not been through this kind testing when I was living a normal human life. It was when I was connected to light and my own soul that I experienced such deep karmic darkness. Master Sha shares that once a person starts to walk on their soul journey consciously, all the karmic darkness will come up for healing. This is the reason why some of the light souls go through deep testing and purification on Mother Earth. Actually they are healing very deeply so they can become totally light. This deep purification has something to teach though. So I will share my journey with you all. I will start with one of my biggest blockages in this lifetime, Ego.

Ego is very dangerous on one’s soul journey as it can truly take one away from the divine connection, and the sacredness that you once felt on your soul journey could be lost in an instant with blockages related Ego. This is the one aspect that all conscious spiritual and light beings have to work on continually. As one is growing on their soul journey, the ego gets subtler and subtler. It shows up in many ways. I will share some of the ways it has affected me. I feel blessed to be on my soul journey still as I truly feel I made many Ego related mistakes. I have learned so much from my mistakes and am inspired to share with you so you can work on some of your ego related blockages. Ego has many layers, many faces, and takes a while to purify. Master Sha shares that Ego is a mind blockage. I wouldn’t have understood how it is a mind blockage if I didn’t go through my own spiritual testing related to Ego. Humans are totally controlled by their minds. If you think you don’t have ego, I am not too sure if that is accurate. If you have a mind, you have Ego. The journey is not to identify with mind anymore but to use the mind to create goodness in the world. I know many people in history have overcome Ego blockages. There is hope. Remember the moment you think you are ego free, please check yourself again. I know I still have way to go.

I will share one by one my learnings and testing with ego and offer a blessing for healing of the Ego in every post I write. This healing will be from the Da Bei Zhou Buddhas. I will chant their names to heal your ego blockages only as appropriate. Please feel free to share you own insights. We can truly learn from each other. 

Today's Healing blessing is from Guan Yin. Please leave your name in the comments and I will offer this healing to help you to pass through any testing that you are going through at the moment. Remember the duality of life is to teach us our karmic lessons. You can learn and move on. May you be aware of the lesson that you need to learn at this time. Some of these lessons may take a while to heal but know this is our journey on earth, to learn and grow. 

Thank you for being part of my soul journey.