Lets Share and Learn (Part 2)

Dearest Sacred Souls, I love you all. This is Post#2 for sharing my journey related to Ego blockages. 

I will share some background about my history with Mind issues. I come from a family with heavy mind blockages and mental health karma. My mother was diagnosed with Schizophrenia from the time of my birth. I also worked in a Mental Health institution for 7 years restraining mental health patients when they were in the middle of full-blown episodes. I had to go through very deep purification related to the mind this lifetime. I could describe my purification related to my mind in one word: suffering. I felt deep suffering with my own mind blockages and others' mind blockages. I could say that it is like living in hell when one's mind is sick. There were times that I couldn't distinguish my own feelings from the mental health patients in the hospital. I had days feeling deep depression and anxiety. Some days I felt even suicidal. I didn't know that I was picking up these feelings from others. I know some healers are able to pick up others' feelings. I was able to this all my life. I would know what people are feeling and accommodate them accordingly. It worked really well until I started to work with Mental Health patients. I feel this all was my training in this lifetime. I am so grateful for this purification as I love my mind now. My mind is the biggest tool to serve humanity. I describe my mind as a lotus flower coming out of deep sticky mud. I am forever grateful that Master Sha saved me. I have received so many karma cleansings from Master Sha related to the Mind. One time my karma had affected me so much that my consciousness was totally damaged. Master Sha saw me in a private consultation, and so generously healed me in a second. He just put his spiritual instrument on my head and I was healed. It was a miracle on the spot. This healed Master Avninder that you know is all Master Sha's Generosity. I give all credit to my spiritual father Master Sha. 

Now I will talk about my Ego blockages. One of the ways that my ego showed up in the past few years was wanting to be special. My mind really played with me with this blockage. I have a very open 3rd eye and I could see my past lifetimes. I wanted to feel special so I was seeking ways to find more about my past.  I saw many of my lifetimes filled with service and I started to hold on to them. This kind of blockage can actually slow down one's progress on the soul journey significantly. Actually now I have compassion for myself for this blockage because I could see some of the issues came from my childhood. Why can feeling special hinder you from your path? Because it creates separation. Yes, 'Feeling special' creates separation. Anything that creates separation is Ego. Feeling special is saying 'I am better than you' and you know this is not true. We are one. We all have something to offer to the world. We are all pieces of the big puzzle. The greatest gift that you can have on your soul journey is to become aware of your blockages. This is what happened to me by the grace of Master Sha. I become aware of it. In becoming aware, you start to heal. You say 'No, this is not true'. I must say you can't ignore this kind of feeling because these kind of feelings will show up again and again until you say 'No'. I suffered with this for years until I said 'No'. I even prayed about it. Please do seek help if it is too strong in you like it was in me. Please don't be shy or afraid because almost everyone has felt rejected and neglected in their life. Everyone wants to feel accepted and special. Be kind to yourself while you are healing this part of you. Have compassion for yourself, but know that this needs to heal. 

One day when I was holding on to a lifetime and a persona where I have served well, this voice spoke to me in a very powerful manner. I know this voice was from a powerful female saint from history. She said, "WHY CARE ABOUT THE GREAT SERVICE YOU HAVE DONE BEFORE, TELL ME WHAT ARE YOU DOING NOW?" The message was so strong. I felt a jolt. and it continued, "IF YOU ARE NOT SERVING NOW THAT SERVICE FROM THE PAST DOESNT MEAN ANYTHING". I was completely in awe. I dropped half the attachment to being special that day. In the coming days, I kept hearing the same message until it became part of me.

The next event happened when I was connecting to my beloved Master's soul and Guan Yin. I was still having some feelings (being special) here and there but not so powerful anymore. Then this 3rd eye vision came and without any words, I was shown the so called special souls in the history who have served well. These souls are special because they are less for themselves and more for others. If those souls who have given their total life to serve don't call themselves special than I think no one is special. They have given all without any attachments. I was in total awe. I could see Guan Yin and my beloved spiritual master's soul in everything like their own identity didn't matter. For them only healing the pain of others mattered. I still feel emotional about this. I have tears coming to my eyes as I write. Now that is special if you want to call something special. 

I hope you can learn from my mistakes. I hope you can prevail and be who you are here to be. May you shine your soul light. Ego prevents you from shining your true light. Always be aware of it. Now please allow me to offer healing related to any of your Ego blockages. You can leave your name in the comments. You don't have to explain what type of ego. I will ask the buddhas to offer most appropriate healing for your ego blockages. The healing blessing is from the first buddha of the Da Bei Zhou Mantra. 

Thank you for being part of my soul journey.